I’m big enough and ugly enough to make my own decisions, and
I won’t succumb to bullying of any kind. So how did I get into Mindlab?
Because I was afraid
I would be left behind. There was a rush of enthusiasm and everyone in my team
was signing up – I couldn’t be the only one not doing this. And there was the
looming Practising
Teacher Criteria (PTC) in e-learning.
In reality, I was
terrified. I have been in teaching long enough that I don’t have a degree. I am
a rare Diploma creature. You know us – gradually disappearing as we retire.
I have kept up with
PD. The dinosaur in amongst the tech savvy spring chickens at i-School. The one
at U-learn because the stimulation is refreshing and keeps me trying to improve
my practice.
But something was missing.
The ingredient that was missing in any depth in my practice
was the use of reflection, theory and evidence to guide changes. 12(i). systematically and
critically engage with evidence and professional literature to reflect on and
refine practice.
I had done so using
basic observations and discussions with students and colleagues, but the in
depth thought, hypothesising, developing hunches and then creating an academically
archaeological style dig to find the evidence and make the connections was
sadly lacking. I believe real inquiry will make the biggest change to my
teaching.
The other elements are all there and very important. I had
dabbled in most, but relished the opportunities to find new digital tools and
play with them. The excitement of identifying new ways to collaborate and to
give student agency. To dig in depth into cultural responsiveness and what it
really means to our learners. To really get to know myself as a learner. These
were being refined and adapted. All valuable stuff.
Perhaps one of the
most surprising elements for me was the online sharing. Finding so many
like-minded people to sound out for advice and ideas. To offer suggestions and
compare notes with so many was a new aspect of my practice. I have followed
many, but had never considered putting my own views across. Something I am
enjoying and learning from.
As a result of the Mindlab programme I have been researching
and using Growth Mindset to improve student outcomes in Mathematics. In its
fledgling state this programme is gathering momentum. I am reluctant to comment
on changes yet, because I need to carry out the ongoing cyclical inquiry to
understand what is really happening.
Rolfe's (2001) model:
However, it was confirming and exciting to hear parents
saying at recent interviews that they had noticed positive attitude changes in
their students. Exciting times ahead.
The pressure was immense. Time pressure to read, view,
digest and regurgitate so much learning in so short a time was a gargantuan
task on top of working full time plus all those other life commitments. I
believe that the task was made manageable because I was in a study group of
close colleagues and we supported each other. To do this task alone would be
difficult. At times, I felt like a walking dictionary of jargon, and sometimes it
took a week to decode what the words and phrases meant before I could then go
on to synthesise the information.
The pressure of
completing assignments, and waiting for results – haven’t had that pressure for
many years. What better way to empathise with our students as learners.
So, was it worth it?
My mind is saying it was terrible. I hated the pressure.
There were so many things that confused and frustrated me, like 3D design. Some
sessions dragged and others flew. Some connections developed and grew, others
not. I would never do this to myself again.……
……except that I learnt so much. So much about myself, my
pedagogy, application of ICT, my practice, a learner’s perspective. The jury is
still out right now but maybe……
References
Ministry of Education (nd). Practising teacher Criteria and e-learning . Retrieved from http://elearning.tki.org.nz/Professional-learning/
Rolfe, G., Freshwater, D., Jasper, M. (2001).Critical reflection in nursing and the helping professions: a user’s guide. Basingstoke: Palgrave Macmillan.